Government work sucks! It doesn’t matter that I received excellent
reviews from my boss. It doesn’t matter
that I helped solve so many felony crimes and even homicides. (Yes I solved
another one). When the state runs out of money and doesn’t fund law
enforcement, the job that was the world to me meant nothing to upper
management. I was deemed no longer an
absolute necessity and let go. The scientist in me understands the politics and
the reasons behind me being laid off, but the emotional side of me (which I
hate to acknowledge and sucks) is screaming about the injustice of it and how
unfair life is!!!
I am so distraught.. I completely broke down as soon as I sat
in my car and immediately called my mom. I felt like I sobbed to her for hour
even though it was only about ten minutes. She reminded me that there are many
jobs of all sorts and of course, let me know how incredibly intelligent I am. I
know she means well but those words seem more like pity then even just mom
love. It’s been a couple days but I still don’t know what I am going to do... Being
able to solve crimes was awesome but I even miss the day to day tests and
chores, like disinfecting every countertop and machines used that day. I want
the chore to do minute tests like blood samples and mineral samples and running
fingerprint scans, having to do the same steps over and over. I miss being in
charge of putting all the glassware in the autoclave and having to be the one
to put them all away correctly when it’s finished. These jobs do not just come
around like the mail. I was so lucky in the first place. It is back to filling
out multiple applications, ridiculing from my friends, and the pressure to
succeed from within.
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